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I get in trouble for this every single day since forever.
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… but I’m going to bitch and complain. My mother has decided that I shouldn’t buy a car right now (with my own money that I have worked for might I add), because that would take my focus off of my college education. I’m not quite sure how I could loose focus on something I never gave a shit about anyweighs, but yeah. Here’s the thing…
1. It’s my fucking money. I go to a job where I barely make enough money to pay for the gas to go to this job just so I could save up to buy the kind of car I wanted. Please do not tell me how to spend it.
2. I stopped giving any fucks about college the end of the first semester of my first year. It’s physically impossible for me to care less.
Since then I’ve lost all interest in everything. Not because I didn’t get to buy the car I wanted, but that was more less the straw to break the camels back. This happening has made me realize nothing I ever do will be good enough, and if it is I will never be happy. Yes, I’m aware she wants what’s best for me, but isn’t it counter-productive for me to do something I hate? Normally when people are forced to do something they hate they do a pretty shitty job of it. Which is why I’m on academic probation now. I stopped caring about school, stopped trying or putting forth effort and they kicked me out like they should. Well, I’m not sure what to do anymore. I lost all interest in school forever ago, I’ve lost pretty much any interest in my job seeing as I don’t make any money, and My focus has been thrown off from real estate with all this other bullshit. Maybe after I’m a 4th year sophomore in college, my mom will catch the hint and stop throwing money aweigh. Until then, I’m just here.
and please please someone anon message me telling me I should be grateful to have a car/caring mother/anything. I’m totally in the mood.
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Oh.
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